Spitfire Spark

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Crossing Over?

I had a dream the other night that I was walking through my grandparents house with my brother. He was leading me by the hand through one of the bedrooms. I felt like I was floating. When we entered the bedroom, I passed by a casket and I immediately put my hands on top of it and said "Hi grandma".

My brother looked at me and said "did you feel it?" I shook my head no. He walked me back outside the room and re-entered. As I passed the door portal, I felt a rush of cold air sweep through me -chilling me to the bone. I said again, eerily, but calmly, "ahhhh, grandma!"

Brother looked at me surprised, shook his head and said, "No! Grandpa." I shivered. Then I woke up.

I was dripping with sweat. And felt for the first time, that I may have just had one of those spiritual connections that you don't really believe when you hear about it or see it on tv. Not a ghostly apparation - but truly contact with someone - rather someTHING - and it was trying to tell me something. I was terrified and elated at the same time.

Everytime I think about it, I get the same shiver. I feel an elevated sense of consciousness, like I really touched something from the beyond. It's surreal.

Perhaps it has something to do with my revelation about having faith. Regardless, I feel...calm. Comfort. A sense that something out there is really leading me - I just need to listen more...

2 Comments:

Blogger Networkchic said...

Thanks for your comments on my blog and I'm glad you decided to use your voice. The truth is I was confused because the last time I heard from you was when you were in Chicago and we had dinner...remember? After that I emailed you but never heard anything back and every now and then I'd send another one asking for updates on your life not because I wanted to be nosey but because I wanted to let you know that I still cared about what happens to you. I'm sorry if you felt you reached out to me more than I to you, but I'm not sure where it all got lost in translation. It's been really hard for me since having a baby because my life has changed dramatically, some good, some disappointing. I try with as much time as I have to keep in touch with those I care about. Sometimes I fail, like you said, Life gets in the way. I've been to your blog many many times hoping you'd update it and I was so happy once you finally did. I love you girl and I always will no matter what. As different as our lives our now, they came from the same place, the same pain, the same things that made us grow up. I'm going to keep coming here hoping to get a little insight to what makes you happy...you deserve happiness and I'm so glad that you now are gaining the faith to let it happen.

9:21 AM  
Blogger Violet said...

Whoa. That's wild.

9:19 AM  

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