Freud sucks

I've been sleeping great in my new place, but I have a little problem - it's mostly been alone. I've been crazy horny because I haven't been able to get in on with my boyfriend in like 2 weeks! He's giving me plenty of space - which is very different then the non-stop sleepovers we used to have. We are falling into non-married couple sex! (We've been together for a year and a half) This is not good because this only leads to non-sex or non-coupling. So much for getting what I ask for!

So after the softball game last night - (in which I KICKED ASS), when I mentioned a good BJ was in store for him, GG decided to stay over last night even though he'd only get 4 hours of sleep and we had wonderful, passionate...mutual masterbation! We've hit serious territory here...I have NEVER not been able to have sex, and lately, it seems that I just can't. I'm not sure if this is emotional baggage because I'm terrified any minute we are supposed to enter the next step, if he is just tired/lazy or if this is a serious problem for May-December romances. All I know, is that I still haven't been boned by big one in a really long time. (sorry for the graphic post.)


Cut to this morning, I had a dream before I woke up that I was in some reality series...and that I was the most popular person there and had two real hotties after me....one boy AND one girl. Then, suddenly, I'm in a hall with my mom and dad and apparently, my dad has decided we need to book this room for my wedding reception, to which an old priest appears and I think "this is NOT what I envisioned for a wedding" the priest decides that he can let me rent out the hall for the wedding, but that he cannot marry me because I am so "evil" - he'll get a...well, one of those guys that ISN'T a priest, to marry me. So my dad hands the guy money and my heart starts racing frantically because I'm FREAKING OUT about getting married like this. The my mom walks out of this door and begins to fall into this giant crevasse - hanging on for her life and the priest is behing me laughing evilly...saying I will get what I deserve and soon. Then I woke up.

Can Freud tell me what that means?

Time Warp

did you ever just think you were running late, only to find out that you are actually early?

i just did that. my pc is screwing with me. it told me it was 5:15 and then i thought i was late for a softball game...i realized it was an hour ahead and i actually have an extra 30 minutes!

i never laughed so hard at myself except for the time that i mooned some guy through the rear window of a Toyota Tacoma. Now that was also funny.

Family Affair

This weekend was AWESOME! My mom and grams came down yonder to help me set up my new apartment. Holy Crap - it was like having my own personal design team...for FREE (Violet should consider hiring my mom - seriously - she is so talented and has a knack for organizing...) Mom is in her element when she is doing this kind of thing...I think she would be great on those design shows...but she sometimes is a bit embarrassing when it comes to haggling for a great price...

I barely lifted a finger...they really wouldn't let me! It was like "honey, do your grading, honey, go to the store and get...honey, what would you like for dinner?"

it was unforgettable. I insisted they go on a gambling cruise ship with me - they LOVE to gamble! It was so fun! Yes, we spent an ungodly amount of money trying to win big...but I ended up drinking Dos Equis on the deck and chilling in the HOT sun...it was great and most importantly, I got to spend time with my 82 year old spitfire grandmother.

I am SO much like her in so many ways! I'm like both of them, actually - a good combination of each. I'm so proud to be related to them. While my grandmother is still very strong, she's had a series of small strokes...and my mother and grandfather treat her like a baby - I know she hates it. They confuse her only because they all think they are right. Mom gets agitated very quickly and she always sounds so cross...so I said something to her...she needs to give gram some room to relax and do things on her own...

I got a little annoyed after a day or two because mom likes to run the show on things. But I've learned through the years to let her have her way MOST of the time. I did have to put my foot down on a few things in the apartment...and I think mom realized that it was OK not to get two dressers for my small pad. One would be enough, even though we got a good deal on two. I had to pay the delivery guys 20 bucks extra to drop the second dresser off at GoodWill.

Of course, GG finally graduated this weekend (HOORAY!) He walked the stage - and he even looked more grown up - and I think he actually looked taller, too (he's already 6' 2"... Our 12 year age difference gets shorter and shorter with each passing day. He got his hair cut and he looked VERY sexy! His family was in town also...so this could only mean that my family would meet HIS family. EEKS! It was good...my mother was crazy and fun...and his family was mild mannered and fun. They liked each other and it seems that everyone said they know where I get my vibrant personality from!

GG and I sat next to each other at dinner and I held GG's hand the whole time. We were cuddly and cute and...in love. Strangely (for me), we have no problems showing our affection to one another in front of our parents. We kissed, and hugged, and cuddled and his parents would jokingly say "Hey, hey now...none of that!" with a wink in their eyes. They are a VERY loving couple, too.

Mama and Grams really like him "he's so cute" "what a great guy". It's awesome. I really feel like he and are are becoming a team. I

When mom and gram left, I was a little sad this week. It's a little lonely in my place. I realize that I actually do like having people around, even though I need Spitfire-time. I miss them. I can't wait to have my family around soon.

This weekend, GG and I are finally going away together - alone - for the first time this summer ( I should be working on my thesis...) To another Astros/Cubs game in Houston...this time, with NO parents. We are also going tubing/camping - and then a romantic hotel stay. We are so excited.

So, it was a busy weekend, and a busy week to come, but my apartment looks fantastic - I can't wait to have my friends visit me. (Uh, Firecracker??? will it be off to Fenway again or here??? ) Hahaha...j/k.

New starts all around!

Well, I did it. I moved to my cute new apartment - now an extra 5 miles away from school. It's great! Except for the fact that I'm in a cattle like parking lot with no garage, I like it.

Of course, a stray kitten found me the day I was moving out...he was sooooo cute! He decided I was mama immediately, and I wanted to keep him...or did I??? Scratch marks, smelly litter box in my house, vet bills , plus the new apt. requires $500 deposit. I know I'll never see it, and I really can't afford to fork out that kind of dough right now. Poor kitty. My old landlord took him home, thank goodness...but doesn't really want him either...I'm guilt-stricken by the fact that I don't really want a pet right now.

Good Guy said it's my commitmentphobia...can't even commit to a little kitten. Now that's for deep therapy, I'm sure.

Now the hard part: organizing my crap before my mom and grams come to visit tomorrow! I'm so excited to make it look great - make it look like something grown up.

In other news, GG graduates from college on Sat. He makes me smile everyday - but I still have those lingering doubts about long term...he is patient though, I know he'll only push me when I'm ready to be pushed. He deserves a special graduation gift...so he and I are taking off to Houston next weekend for some long-needed alone time with the Cubs and the Astros! YAY!

We have both been so dreadfully busy this summer...and we need the break from this po-dunk city.

We decided not to plan too much...just wander the city and see what befalls us!

It will be a great end to a summer, and a fresh start to his new-found freedom.