Drama seems to be the theme of my life. Friday night I went out with Goddess and had a wonderful time rekindling our friendship. However, I decided to to meet Good Guy out (he had already been drinking for 5 hours.) A previous Bad Boy of mine was there - he plays guitar - so the situation was already awkward...but ironically, GG and I were having a blast being the cutest cozy couple. I could sense that BB was eyeing me up pretty well - but I did my best to be friendly to everyone - although secretly I really wanted to lure BB in.
Realize, that my only reason for doing this is the sheer fact that I want to make him jealous/sorry for ever dumping me. It has nothing to do with the fact that I actually want him back in my life as a serious boyfriend. So I flirt, flirt, FLIRT my ass of with BB and his brother *sigh* - it feels so good to be in control.
But my flirting comes with a price - of cours. I'm horny and want GG to pay the tab - because he's REALLY drunk (and I can take advantage of him when we get home.)
As GG is paying the tab, I continue to engage the Bad Boy duo in conversation - I was ON, baby! All of a sudden, GG, comes over to state that he is going home to bed. Home, to his house (which I am now picking up the vibe that he is directing the comment to me that he is headed there without me.) Oh. oh. What the fuck did I just do?
I can tell he is PISSED. He storms away. Now the proper thing to do in this situation is for me to follow...but ...I'm ON baby...I can't leave like this!! I've got BB in the palm of my hand! ON BABY....so I refuse to leave without at least finishing my beer. A fact I state to BB - who I realize I'm now completely alone with. This could be trouble - but my feet don't move. I can tell the attraction is THICK - and he moves in a little closer to make conversation. Normally, I would have jumped all over that...but something makes me aware that what happened here is that BB thinks he "won" - just because GG walked away {BB score =1}. We begin to talk about our past and GG suddenly reappears! YAY! My knight came back to get me!!
I can see is tremendously upset - but he still has not communicated to me exactly what is wrong...I ask him several times - I can see he is holding back - until finally, he explodes and yells at me in the middle of the bar! He sounded like Chewbacca wailing when Han gets frozen. I have no idea what he said!
Anyway, I certainly realize I have hurt his feelings by my actions...and that just breaks my heart. But I'm pissed as hell about how he handled the situation - but I also realize he is totally drunk. So I set down my beer, politely tell BB good bye -that I need to go...and leave with GG. {GG score = 1}
We spent a little time outside because I needed to calm him down. But I realized that what I needed to do was just get him home to sleep. I drove us home, and we just slept it off until the next morning. It was the first weird morning I think we've ever had between us. After a while, we were able to talk through our feelings and ended up making love 3 times. (GG score = 3)
So that ends that drama. GG = 4, BB = 1.
